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Title: I need you
Spoilers: Innocence
Author's note: Thats about 5 vignettes in 4 days. Plus some I haven't sent. I'm in a very angsty mood. Argh. Someone stop me! Hi Omega!!
What am I supposed to do? Why do I feel like this? You aren't even the person you were. I long to hear your voice say, "I love you", and to see it confirmed in your eyes. It's been so long since we talked, and I miss you. Not only your love, and your strength, but just you, my friend.
I love you. Three simple words. Three simple words which changed my life. I don't regret you. I don't regret falling in love with you. I regret knowing what loving you was like. I regret knowing what you loving me was like. Because now, I can never go back to how it was, because I know what was missing. I can't think of you, without my stomach tying itself into a thousand knots. I can't look at anyone else, without thinking of you.
I need you. I need your strength to keep fighting, to give me the will to carry on. Without you, I feel empty, and half a person.
When I see you, I want you. I want you more than anything on this earth. Even though I know its not you, not the person who loved me, but I can't move on. A part of me is scared to, because, what if you came back? What if you were you again? My life would be torn apart again, because I want to love you, but yet, my conscience tells me that to love you would be to hurt everyone I love. I'm confused. I need answers to questions I don't know how to ask. I need strength which isn't mine to have. I need help.
I need you.
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